|Favorite spot on campus and why? |
My favorite spot on campus may seem a bit awkward. It is not a scenic location, nor is it a fancy place. It is a conference room on the third floor of the Bay Tree Bookstore. Back in the day, it used to be called Conference Room D. But nowadays, in honor of the Natives who inhabited the land before we came along, the room has been renamed the Cervantes and Velasquez Conference Room. Part of the reason this conference room is my favorite spot on campus is because it is where I have met up with my friends every Monday of the quarter since freshman year to plan events for the Chinese Student Association. This room is my favorite spot because it is where I have made so many memories. I heart CSA.
by the Randster
*sigh* touches my heart and makes me sad
the 4 years have passed by very quickly. i still remember the flyer that jeff showed me for CSA's bowling night. It was a night that changed my life on campus forever :] in a good way! i will miss this student organization.. as it brought me countless friends and strong friendships. i will miss going to free events and eating free food that satisfied my lunches and dinners. i'm sad that there's only one more csa core night.. i'm sad there's only one more monday to look forward to.. i'm sad that there's one more csa event.. one more core event and my last csa year end. csa isn't just for promoting chinese culture.. its more of a social network for me :'[ my heart will ache for it and i'm happy that i've had the opportunity to take it for granted. i've gone to many other cultural events because of it.. attended other student orgs and ucsc events and happy that facebook has the events application so we can all stay connected and support one another. i'm sad for the alums that left and taught us much about ucsc life and entertained us with stories. i've met wonderful new friends that i will miss not knowing earlier. and most of all i will cherish all my memories at UCSC :] highschool was memorable and so is college. i love gaining more than an education... i've gained life skills, people awareness!! heheh and companionships. <3
|i'm pretty bummed out. today sucks. |
|hellos dear fans of mine =) |
as usual I am working during the summer -_- and *sigh as usual I am working in retail. I tell myself no but it keeps on happening >.< ! I will be starting school on September 25th! I am somewhat excited and at the same time also have some anxiety in me. This year will be my last =( wahhh @ santa crUz. and also! I will be co coordinating banquet with Randy. ^^ fun stuff !! Man the year just passes by quickly. Work is slow at times >.< but the days go on fast. I am an intern @ Walgreens.. bmi bmi!! business management intern. It's my 10th week and I still have trainee on my name tag.. RAWR!! I have 2 weeks and 2 days more to go! I am counting the days until my summer vacation starts. I'll only have 1 week b4 I return for training as a "peer advisor" @ ucsc. I am looking forward to dinner with Kelvin, lunch/hang out with SC buddies, and also a mojito partay @ Travis'. But I really am looking forward to Sept 5th.
I am thankful for most of the memories at college. :) People make it memorable ! + Events!! midterms/finals.. not so much. I do not know what to do in the future as in career wise. I do have thoughts of opening a store called "Jennas" like Michaels ........... and making it 1/3 PMT + 1/3 Wedding Planning Store. All I need is the moola!!! BUT honestly I won't have the money nor the loan funds to open a store. =( SADNESS!! one day hopefully my thoughts will come true!
I am working to save for my graduation trip to Hawaii 09' =) So far gas + credit card bills keep cutting my paychecks in half =\ WHY DAMNIT WHY!!! why can't I walk to the nearest WALGREENS + work there! it's not FAIR! okay so .. in the future I will live near work! work near home! own a horse =]
I miss not caring so much about gas + money. I miss living at the village (my 3rd place I lived at in SC) I MISS my old housemates!! I miss being 18. I also miss eddie Bauers =\ now its all different + very colorful with MASSIVE bright lights covering the whole store =\ I miss dancing drunk. jk hehehehe LOL I MISS BEING PRE 20 !!! when I wanted to drink and could not =| drinking my first gulp of bacardi gold in the parking lot of an albertsons before me + crystal hit the club. -_- LAME! sneaking out to go clubbing and then returning and breaking my windOw. *sigh the GOOD days of being rebellious and stupid.
I AM quite content on where I am now and who I am as a person ..sometimes only. because sometimes I know I can be more honest. Like when I see money on the ground I would just take it.. instead of ask around.. omg this happened like 3 times =\\\\\\ i feel guilty but i don't do anything. I will try to be more honest this year. anyway. continuing ON... I DO like my hours.......it all started... when I worked at eddie B they wanted me to work after school. but on the day I got hired.. I was like.. oh yeah I can only work weekends >.< and @ Frys I fought just to have either a Saturday or a Sunday off. This year my schedule is M-F 9-5. I'm pretty pleased with having weekends off. It's really unheard of in RETAIL. that's why I do not think I would like working in retail. Employees have such odd hours. graveyard.. to 1am or 2 am and then no weekends off! very unstable and it tires the poor feet! It's great because I get to see Dickson on the weekend if he's free also. Everything is going alright. I would like to explore more 21 + clubs ..maybe after work ends on sept 5th since I get so tired from work -_- M-Thu is tiring. and Friday I barely have energy to do anything.. I just have the motivation that the weekend is here. I STILL WANT TO MIx DRINKS ! I shall bring my coCktails book to Travis' I MUST
|per·son·al·i·ty /ˌpɜrsəˈnælɪti/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[pur-suh-nal-i-tee] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun, plural -ties.
|1.||the visible aspect of one's character as it impresses others: He has a pleasing personality. |
|2.||a person as an embodiment of a collection of qualities: He is a curious personality. |
|a.||the sum total of the physical, mental, emotional, and social characteristics of an individual. |
|b.||the organized pattern of behavioral characteristics of the individual. |
|4.||the quality of being a person; existence as a self-conscious human being; personal identity. |
|5.||the essential character of a person. |
|6.||something apprehended as reflective of or analogous to a distinctive human personality, as the atmosphere of a place or thing: This house has a warm personality. |
|7.||a famous, notable, or prominent person; celebrity. |
|8.||application or reference to a particular person or particular persons, often in disparagement or hostility. |
|9.||a disparaging or offensive statement referring to a particular person: The political debate deteriorated into personalities.|
personality.. all done to impress others is the FIRST definition from
dictionary.com *sigh i thought personality is for yourself. for your
own benefit, for own happiness. why be selfless and sacrifice your
personality for someone else... they don't live in your shoes. i should
be sleeping now. but i can't. in fact i haven't been sleeping that well
for the last 2 weeks. WORRIED aHHH n stressed. too many WHAT IFS!! and
too many did i do / say the wrong thing. school life ah omg i'm scared
to go out to the real world.
you can't change your personality, only if you truly want to for
yourself. but i never thought about it... but you can if someone says
something is wrong with you...then you can compromise and not do
whatever that is around that person to make them happy. but truly....
are you lying to yourself? what if its a habit. what if that person is
too traditional. WHAT IF you don't really wanna do it. >.< but
you know you should. OH MY! what if that person in the beginning didn't
really know you that well and assumed you were how you are n then at
the end or during this relationship that you have that you surprise
them along the way and you are different than the person they thought
you were in the beginning.
the whole point of a personality is to be different. to stand out. to
be comfortable around people who you think that like your personality.
if we were all the SAME conservative reserved people who didn't cuss or
ALL had the SAME hairstyle. OR lets put this in reverse. what if
everyone lost their trademark habits. here n there and a lot of habits
taken away .. will result in an average personality. what if i didn't
smell that otter fur i did at davis. what if i didn't do my average
quirky things like not caring whether ppl looked down on me as i laugh
really loud out of nowehre or make side comments n jokes or facial
expressions. what if i didn't hold that snake.. what if people thought
snakes were dirty and full of germs.
i mean there's a time and a place for everything. i'm in college
surrounded by college students who act "bad" "gross" "dirtied mouth" i
dont consider myself to be any extreme. it's college. it's fun to not
take things seriously. laugh it off. i have my whole entire life to be
professional to be in an office setting surrounded by people who judge
bottom line is my personality is who i am. i think i'm fine the way i am.
i don't see the ugly in people i love. i love them for who they are. i
may disagree but i wouldnt change them one bit. or perhaps.. it doesn't
bother me, for i know they have many numerous qualities that i like
that overcome everything else.
so 2nd bottom line,,, if you enjoy doing something weird or saying
anything wrong.. if u're already my friend.. you probably most likely
make me laugh with how you're different.
"The achievements which society rewards are won at the cost of diminution of personality."
don't get lost in the mix.